Where we're at, home ed and life in general

I've known for a long time that home ed is the way forward for us. Some times I think that I might crack up being with the children all day and all night, every day and every night, however, I made them therefore I should be the one looking after them! When people say, 'I don't think I could handle the responsibility of home educating my children', I generally think and some times say, 'I can't handle the huge responsibility of handing them over to the education system. I don't think I could live with the guilt either'!

Sylvie goes to nursery two days a week. Sending her to nursery was a decission I really struggled with, and to be honest, I didn't think it would be a long term thing. I was used to seeing mum at least every other day - she was a huge help with the kids. When she fell ill before Christmas our world became a bit smaller. I didn't have a car and was heavily pregnant with Annabelle which wasn't easy. I think I hada spot of SPD this time 'round. I literally couldn't stand up. My poor old pelvis... it's been very busy over the last three years.

Sylvie only attends nursery for the free 15 hours per week, this means that she has a four week break over the Easter hols. I've decided to immerse us in all home ed group activities over that time and if she settles and enjoys being with the other children etc. etc. we'll just carry on like that and she'll not go back to nursery. There have been so many changes in her little like since October that I want to stop pushing her from pillar to post so this will be the last 'fiddle' we have with the rhythum of her week. She lost her bear, Ning Ning who she took everywhere. He was a disease waiting to happen, so filthy but she loved him. She lost her Nana, she had a new baby sister and she started nusery!

Anyway - too many hours were spent in front of the TV before Christmas which is why I decided Sylvie could go to nursery. She loved it the first couple of times she went and I was thrilled, but then her mood changed. She seemed to loose confidence and become a bit withdrawn and would have a sad little face when I dropped her off on a morning... I've rattled on and on about her not going back, however, she is still going and she does like it again. Her old personality shines through once more and I'm no longer worried about her.

There's a fab meet up in Tyne and Wear on a Friday that I've been to a couple of times. Home ed mums have made a list of venues to visit and things to do and it seems to be going quite well. I was all ready to go and meet them last Friday but I met a relative in Durham who I'd not seen for years and that kind of put a spanner in the works!!! Hey ho, nevermind... I will be more organised this week.